I try to remember that I do have hope. I hope that I can win this battle. I hope that I will have many more good days than bad days. I hope that everyone struggling knows they’re not alone. I hope that in their darkest hours, people can fight their way through. I hope for understanding. I hope for compassion. I hope for happiness. I hope.

—Jenna Guillaume


Feeling Sad Without a Reason

Today I am sad. About lots of things and, at the same time, none of it. It could be because of the bad dream that I had, or the appointment in the morning that I was late for, or the nausea that I got later and spent the rest of the day trying to get rid of. It may be just PMS.

I didn’t left the apartment. I tried to do some cleaning, some laundry, and that didn’t make me feel better, or even productive, which is very unusual. It didn’t stop me to feel like crap the whole day.

You may think I’m depressed or something. But I am not. I have some issues, like everybody. Only today I have this dark cloud of emptiness over my head, and everywhere I look in my life. I wish I could sleep until tomorrow in the moment I started to feel that way. Without talking to anyone, without spreading this heaviness.

I know that tomorrow the day will rise different. And I’ll be different. Let’s hope it’s for the best.

Hope you had a better day than mine.